My old self is a mere shadow in the ally way of my past.

I have been reinventing myself since I got pregnant with Rylee. I have become a non-smoker. I have changed my eating and exercise habits. I have even changed my vocabulary. I rely on God more and more to change me from the inside. I want to be the best I can be for her. I want her to see an example of a Godly woman. I am sure my description of what a Godly woman is can be different from others views. I strive to be like Jesus in my daily life. If some one needs prayer, I will pray. If someone needs anything I try to give and do whatever I can. When someone offends me or hurts me, I do my best to forgive and pray for them. I spend time reading and praying for understanding and applying the Word. When things don't go according to plan, I try to just breath and see what God is doing in the situation. When new ideas or frustrations or challenges come into our family, I try to see what the spirit is behind them. Also to pray for what God would want us to do. When I fail to do any of these things, I ask God to please teach me how to handle it better and forgive myself. I love as much as humanly possible, with my heart so far out there that it is trampled often. Thank you God for always being consistent! I want Rylee to just learn from me that Jesus died for her, and that she is so very special. I want her to learn to love Him, and to love others. I want to teach her to forgive and pray. I want her to learn that although many bad things happen in this world there will be a new world some day and that is why we live in this world and are not of it. I think if I just love God and keep my eyes focused on Him all these things will happen. I don't feel like it is a sacrifice to let go of my old self. I feel like a Phoenix! I want Him to search my heart. I want to know that every time I fail, I am learning to be better for Him. I love to be always learning, growing and changing. My old self is a mere shadow in the ally way of my past. Let me be made over Lord, by Your Spirit. Let us prosper here in order to further the kingdom in Jesus' name! Amen... Thanks for reading my freestyle rambles. I may make light, but this is so heavy on my heart. I am excited to be a daughter of the King of Kings!